but it is in my head and am i compelled to realise it, so it is my silmarillion, my tempelos


it exists in my head in some way that i'm trying to get out i lied on my story a little bit because i'm mostly feeling it and thinking about it. feeling something deeply doesn't necessitate any kind of deep relevance or whatever but the thinking is useful

i got bored though because i knew all of the different arrangements of it. i probably needed to stick at it longer to get it dense enough to feel navigable in a way that was engaging to me

a version of this existed for a few months last year but it was static. it was HTML with writing and pictures and videos and sounds. i had this feeling that the code should be as important as the content, that structurally each piece in relation to each other piece shouldn't change, that the mazelike quality should emerge from me intricately arranging paths through it. like classic hypertext

it is hopeful

amazing hopefully this was all legible and frankly i might be going very off board but you seemed interesting

much more tactility

i haven't read 100 book s so i'm probably not getting the depth of all of what you're saying

It Will Get Lighter

so the method has to be autonomous

yeah

okay this is interesting because pedagogies we have rn are not proper models

its performative

a lot of what i've been doing has been some imaginary screenshot or recording of his website, something that could be found within it

mazelike/rhizomatic/immanent/emergent are not antithetical to a transcendent real but its very manifestation

Sun, 02 Nov 2025 23:49:08

i hadn't considered this pedagogically or as a kind of personal knowledge management system (puke) at all but i suppose it is both of those things

This is a website run by a narcissist who can't produce anything without the hope that it is seen and loved but can't act due to the fear of it being seen and hated. They immediately feel the need to ask Jack GPT to define whatever this feeling is in the hope that understanding it will mean control over it and control over it will mean that they can stop it.

currently

i guess imagine a multimedia obsidian or notion that behaves according to some insane arcane rules that you can't ever really determine

I know that if I try to make this entry any more than it is I will ruin it.