She closes the window. I wasn't paying attention anyway, I'm getting cold, and the birds are nowhere to be seen. I go inside.

I'm in a crowded lift and a girl I've never met tells me she thinks she might love me.
The lift won't stop at any floor, and I can't talk in front of all these people.

There is a pause. She ashes her cigarette. It falls on me. It seems like the birds have stopped too.

Their voices are saying they haven't and shouldn't fuck but want to so bad, or have fucked and can't again but want to so bad, or something like that. Would this be easier if they were birds? Incel kind of question... I'm not following the conversation, but I'm still listening. He's talking in this slightly begging way. It's a way of talking that asks for pity, like he's already tried appealing to every other one of her sensibilities. Incel kind of observation... Maybe he just talks like that, in some upspeak derivative. Haha unless?

Rain, starting

Today I felt like starting

Thu, 04 Dec 2025 11:31:03

hiding from the rain

Tue, 02 Dec 2025 11:29:50

in a post. I want to be remembered

yes

kind of mythopoesis

Better Lift

we want to live the knowledge too live the content

as in

with this post net clarity and the hours of nothing that followed I realise this is going to be awful. 

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i am quite confused, not quite getting the idea of it

but really the thing should be autonomous

you cannot feed someone language, they have to speak


autonomy of learning

Picture

It Will Get Lighter

magnetisation/form

Sun, 02 Nov 2025 22:11:24

Sun, 02 Nov 2025 23:49:08

so i or you can author smaller fragments that get arranged

I wonder if she knew I was down there listening? I wonder if she would've said something more true, more personal, more raw, more heartfelt, more harsh, more seductive, more freeing, more exposing, more risky, more romantic, more rude, more honest, more anything, if there hadn't been an audience.