i guess imagine a multimedia obsidian or notion that behaves according to some insane arcane rules that you can't ever really determine

i understand

that looks like my instagram account

idk


theres a kind of a cowardice to generative art that i want to avoid though. i want the kind of relationship to this thing that a game designer has to a game engine

lol yea

no i haven't really read anything

Above and in front two birds are darting in and out of a tree. Sometimes they collide to fight or maybe mate, but I can't really make it out in the low light. It's just after

dusk

, I have nothing to do, I'm watching them, trying to figure it out.

whats your name?

Slug

there's probably something in that, but I don't feel like thinking about it too much yet.

and the fake qualifier

isaac newton

bro i read nothing in my life

My inability to confront the old racist failed actor is distracting me. I decide not to tell her about it.

something religious, a kind of complex,

it will get lighter

, something washing, cleansing, revealing, etc.

Tue, 02 Dec 2025 11:29:50

Thu, 04 Dec 2025 11:31:03

I catch him on his way to the bar, telling him about this old racist failed actor that I'm avoiding. That I'm failing to confront. I get the sense he's avoiding people too. We get our drinks and find a corner. We chat for a bit. He's managing just fine.


The old failed actor genuinely believed this girl was of a lesser race. He believed she shouldn't be talking with me, shouldn't be here at this party, shouldn't be here in this country. He wanted a white England. I didn't really challenge him on it. Sometimes I justify it with thoughts like I was drunk, or baffled, or it isn't an argument I'll win, or he can't hear me anyway, or whatever. I didn't argue with him. I just cut off his rant and left with a pathetic "In a bit."

He went in there with a camera to film it before he moved out of the building. He didn't think anyone would believe the story if he didn't have proof.