He was a proper old-fashioned London geezer (cringe word, hate it, can't think of a better one, worst of all it's the correct word), kind of East Endy, kind of Real London, the kind you don't really meet but if you do it always feels like an uncanny immersive theatre experience. They're anachronistic. They only belong in the London collectively imagined by people who don't spend any time in it.

something religious, a kind of complex,

it will get lighter

, something washing, cleansing, revealing, etc.


Rain, starting

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Wed, 11 Nov 2025 21:12:41

Garden Post-Dusk, Birds Above, In Another Life

Imprint, memory, impact, representation, impression

magnetisation/form

a heavy, heavy rain. a clear day.

I created this site

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i got bored though because i knew all of the different arrangements of it. i probably needed to stick at it longer to get it dense enough to feel navigable in a way that was engaging to me


there's probably something in that, but I don't feel like thinking about it too much yet.

but i respect your search


something for the future. something to look at when this is more. I've been thinking about... whatever

theres a kind of a cowardice to generative art that i want to avoid though. i want the kind of relationship to this thing that a game designer has to a game engine

that is unstable and lets me operate in that discovery mode that i can create within and also produce works from.

so at the end

so the method has to be autonomous

somewhere between instagram and chatgpt

kind of mythopoesis

Lift Analysis

Tue, 02 Dec 2025 11:29:50

Hours staring at the ceiling, the wall, curling up into a ball. It seems annoyed with the light, it kind of recoils. It will get lighter. I wonder where it goes in the day.

nope. i only remember the leaves bristling behind the window during chemistry class

mazelike/rhizomatic/immanent/emergent are not antithetical to a transcendent real but its very manifestation

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yeah people dont get it they assume its ahnaf

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ahnaf abrar