Thu, 06 Nov 2025 23:18:46

There is a pause. She ashes her cigarette. It falls on me. It seems like the birds have stopped too.

Garden Post-Dusk, Birds Above, In Another Life

Above and in front two birds are darting in and out of a tree. Sometimes they collide to fight or maybe mate, but I can't really make it out in the low light. It's just after

dusk

, I have nothing to do, I'm watching them, trying to figure it out.

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Rain, starting

Tue, 02 Dec 2025 11:29:50

Sun, 23 Nov 2025 10:37:17

13, H, grate

I wonder if the birds knew I was watching?

so magnetisation means the divine spirit acting thru u endowing you with its qualities

which magnetises chains of pins

lol yea

nope. i only remember the leaves bristling behind the window during chemistry class

...

The slug lives in my bathroom. I only see it in the early hours of the morning, when I'm not quite right.

I'm trying to picture the scene inside, like I was trying to picture the scene in the tree.

ahnaf abrar


December 2025

Overall meaning: The dream seems to explore vulnerability, unspoken emotion, and the tension between connection and isolation. It suggests you may be processing intense feelings of longing or missed opportunities, and your subconscious is guiding you to acknowledge, release, or transform them.

Lift Analysis

i know a little bit of lacan which probably influences me in a way i cant articulate


2 (actually index). two is company

Sun, 02 Nov 2025 22:11:24

plato

ahnaf is it worth reading all those books