Above and behind a window opens and a cigarette hangs out.
Tue, 02 Dec 2025 11:29:50
yes
Above and in front two birds are darting in and out of a tree. Sometimes they collide to fight or maybe mate, but I can't really make it out in the low light. It's just after
dusk
, I have nothing to do, I'm watching them, trying to figure it out.One of the birds shoots out of the tree.
"Anyway, you're you. I mean, look at you!" she says. "You could get with anyone, anyone in the street. Really."
there's probably something in that, but I don't feel like thinking about it too much yet.
I wonder if she knew I was down there listening? I wonder if she would've said something more true, more personal, more raw, more heartfelt, more harsh, more seductive, more freeing, more exposing, more risky, more romantic, more rude, more honest, more anything, if there hadn't been an audience.
I am below everything.
so at the end
so an active mazelike process
its performative
like people can read 100 books and still not have the fire within them
we want to live the knowledge too live the content
Thu, 06 Nov 2025 23:18:46
autonomy of learning
brb i will read and reply sincerely