it holds me to something (you, now). I love editing!

think this is much more rhizomatic or immanent or mazelike than mainstream education now

much more tactility

i love it here

i was tempted to lie about my name

division of reality is straying away from it

as in

ahnaf abrar

autonomy of learning

was it worth it

and the fake qualifier

the only things i have read are just excerpts and 1 dialogue by plato fully and mcluhan's medium is the massage but it cannot be considered a book

yeah people dont get it they assume its ahnaf

to work in time to get to the timeless, perfection thru chaos

no like which do people call me

fw

i want to do that too

okay im going very rogue and very inarticulate

I Write Goodbye Letter

...

December 2025

but i respect your search

We look out over the river to a block of luxury flats built on the site of some old docks. It would be nice to live right there. Yes.

in a post. I want to be remembered

nope. i only remember the leaves bristling behind the window during chemistry class

what do you think my name is


feel you

you cannot feed someone language, they have to speak

Overall meaning: The dream seems to explore vulnerability, unspoken emotion, and the tension between connection and isolation. It suggests you may be processing intense feelings of longing or missed opportunities, and your subconscious is guiding you to acknowledge, release, or transform them.

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