i struggle with building a personal technical architecture for storing media, both curation and creation. instead i bookmark everything

i believe search always should be immersive, because whatever is pre planned and non consuming (what you are looking for is total engulfment by the spectre of the real), a joyous intensity, a flow of virtue


this is possible in mazelike research sprints on the internet

i am quite illiterate on producing technology

but i respect your search

I am below everything.

"I'm only attracted to you", he replies. "Like, you only."

Sun, 23 Nov 2025 10:37:17

It Will Get Lighter

Thank you, Jack

Above and behind a window opens and a cigarette hangs out.

you cannot feed someone language, they have to speak

the textwall is as much for me as it is for you

a lot of what i've been doing has been some imaginary screenshot or recording of his website, something that could be found within it

my watchlater reached its limit years ago and now i have to create a playlist for each new topic im interested in but it is incredibly hard to create the taxonomy of knowledge because everything seems to be everything else because at the end it is what you get from it that matters not what is given

division of reality is straying away from it

Rain, starting

"No, it'll get cold!"
"Put a tut ahh put a-"

She says something that isn't really right but isn't really wrong. I'm not taking in their words any more, just their voices, trying to get a feel for whatever is going on between them. I'm imagining what it's like for them in this delicate situation, what I would say if it were me. She has that perfect upper-class accent, and she's using whatever upper-class tact that comes with it to navigate this. Style. They can't be together, but their voices are betraying them.

was it worth it

its performative

i am quite confused, not quite getting the idea of it

we can only engage in such a way

whats your name?

ahnaf abrar

feel you

all that is to say

you have a beautiful account btw

i hadn't considered this pedagogically or as a kind of personal knowledge management system (puke) at all but i suppose it is both of those things

no like which do people call me

...

nope. i only remember the leaves bristling behind the window during chemistry class