the textwall is as much for me as it is for you

Better Lift

"Put a blanket."

in a post. I want to be remembered

She closes the window. I wasn't paying attention anyway, I'm getting cold, and the birds are nowhere to be seen. I go inside.

Garden Post-Dusk, Birds Above, In Another Life

I know that if I try to make this entry any more than it is I will ruin it.

Today I felt like starting

Sun, 02 Nov 2025 23:49:08

One of the birds shoots out of the tree.

isaac

so an active mazelike process

somewhere between instagram and chatgpt

we need to be deconstructing our identities

...

i dont understand magnetisation

its good short few pages

there is a distinction between western-modern pedagogical systems that's like text-based as in a legal method but there is an idea of "pathshala" or "guru shissho"/ "porompora" i mean how masters relayed knowledge to the student by (oral) transmission often by memorising books. so what was taught was always interactive. knowledge was interactive, you spoke with people rather than read texts.

"Anyway, you're you. I mean, look at you!" she says. "You could get with anyone, anyone in the street. Really."

i want to do that too

i was tempted to lie about my name

okay this is interesting because pedagogies we have rn are not proper models

ahnaf is it worth reading all those books

i did until you asked which kind of gave it away

you have a beautiful account btw

"I'm only attracted to you", he replies. "Like, you only."

Better Lift

nope. i only remember the leaves bristling behind the window during chemistry class

what do you think my name is

and the fake qualifier

have you read

and the fake qualifier

Sun, 23 Nov 2025 10:37:17

okay im going very rogue and very inarticulate