the point of this was to try and avoid this narcissistic death spiral I'm in by acting anonymously and impulsively. how can that feeling that even Jack can't describe paralyse me if my name isn't next to any of this? the excitement of believing I just need a new process has overcome me and I have cummed out an empty webpage.

with this post net clarity and the hours of nothing that followed I realise this is going to be awful.


i got bored though because i knew all of the different arrangements of it. i probably needed to stick at it longer to get it dense enough to feel navigable in a way that was engaging to me

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Thu, 06 Nov 2025 23:18:46

no longer writing in the third person


currently

nope. i only remember the leaves bristling behind the window during chemistry class

bro i read nothing in my life

it holds me to something (you, now). I love editing!

Better Lift


i really havent

wait what is that

i sat down to eat my peasant dinner but i thought it was a song you sent so i didn’t watch it then

Thu, 06 Nov 2025 21:22:59

The slug lives in my bathroom. I only see it in the early hours of the morning, when I'm not quite right.

mazelike/rhizomatic/immanent/emergent are not antithetical to a transcendent real but its very manifestation