Hours staring at the ceiling, the wall, curling up into a ball. It seems annoyed with the light, it kind of recoils. It will get lighter. I wonder where it goes in the day.

It's loud and he's gone deaf in one ear, so I don't think he's really hearing anything I'm trying to say. We're both pretty drunk too. It's making for a kind of surreal interactive Business Insider YouTube video of a conversation. He talks, waits for my response, sees my mouth moving but doesn't hear my words, then he imagines something in their place, and replies to that. At least I don't really have to do anything but drink and mime and listen to a lot of bullshit fake gangster talk, being an actor, boxing, the old days, blah blah blah.

This is a website run by a narcissist who can't produce anything without the hope that it is seen and loved but can't act due to the fear of it being seen and hated. They immediately feel the need to ask Jack GPT to define whatever this feeling is in the hope that understanding it will mean control over it and control over it will mean that they can stop it.

there is a distinction between western-modern pedagogical systems that's like text-based as in a legal method but there is an idea of "pathshala" or "guru shissho"/ "porompora" i mean how masters relayed knowledge to the student by (oral) transmission often by memorising books. so what was taught was always interactive. knowledge was interactive, you spoke with people rather than read texts.

Thu, 06 Nov 2025 21:22:59

Dreams like these are highly symbolic and emotionally intense. Here’s a breakdown of common interpretations:

It's

dusk

okay this is interesting because pedagogies we have rn are not proper models

December 2025

Windrush Art Kid Oligarch

you have a beautiful account btw

Mon, 01 Dec 2025 23:38:15

its performative

like people can read 100 books and still not have the fire within them

Above and behind a window opens and a cigarette hangs out.

but it is in my head and am i compelled to realise it, so it is my silmarillion, my tempelos

magnetisation/form

okay im going very rogue and very inarticulate

we can only engage in such a way

It Will Get Lighter

Imprint, memory, impact, representation, impression

autonomy of learning

The slug lives in my bathroom. I only see it in the early hours of the morning, when I'm not quite right.

not their contents