no longer writing in the third person

so at the end

with this post net clarity and the hours of nothing that followed I realise this is going to be awful.

Rain, starting

Style

something religious, a kind of complex,

it will get lighter

Sun, 02 Nov 2025 22:11:24

the point of this was to try and avoid this narcissistic death spiral I'm in by acting anonymously and impulsively. how can that feeling that even Jack can't describe paralyse me if my name isn't next to any of this? the excitement of believing I just need a new process has overcome me and I have cummed out an empty webpage.

Thank you for telling me that I'm failing to see how I'm reproducing the dynamics I'm trying to critique by only describing my Korean colleague / fresh meat and the black girl in relation to others and myself.

i understand

you cannot feed someone truth

idk

I am below everything.

i know a little bit of lacan which probably influences me in a way i cant articulate

i have read not even 1 book

This is a website run by a narcissist who can't produce anything without the hope that it is seen and loved but can't act due to the fear of it being seen and hated. They immediately feel the need to ask Jack GPT to define whatever this feeling is in the hope that understanding it will mean control over it and control over it will mean that they can stop it.

it is hopeful