something for the future. something to look at when this is more. I've been thinking about... whatever

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Better Lift

Thu, 06 Nov 2025 23:18:46

i know a little bit of lacan which probably influences me in a way i cant articulate

Tue, 02 Dec 2025 11:29:50

This is a website run by a narcissist who can't produce anything without the hope that it is seen and loved but can't act due to the fear of it being seen and hated. They immediately feel the need to ask Jack GPT to define whatever this feeling is in the hope that understanding it will mean control over it and control over it will mean that they can stop it.

autonomy of learning

all that is to say

a lot of what i've been doing has been some imaginary screenshot or recording of his website, something that could be found within it

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it exists in my head in some way that i'm trying to get out i lied on my story a little bit because i'm mostly feeling it and thinking about it. feeling something deeply doesn't necessitate any kind of deep relevance or whatever but the thinking is useful

the point of this was to try and avoid this narcissistic death spiral I'm in by acting anonymously and impulsively. how can that feeling that even Jack can't describe paralyse me if my name isn't next to any of this? the excitement of believing I just need a new process has overcome me and I have cummed out an empty webpage.

Can I see

no longer writing in the third person

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god being the centre magnet

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i see a website though something that reconfigures or is mazelike

this will be about a slug

yeah people dont get it they assume its ahnaf

its good

god "possessing" artists "possessing" people