Rain, starting

no longer writing in the third person

something religious, a kind of complex,

it will get lighter

it is hopeful

ahnaf is it worth reading all those books

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but really the thing should be autonomous

Sun, 02 Nov 2025 23:49:08

One of the birds shoots out of the tree.

i see a website though something that reconfigures or is mazelike

Thu, 06 Nov 2025 23:18:46

hiding from the rain

but it is in my head and am i compelled to realise it, so it is my silmarillion, my tempelos

Above and behind a window opens and a cigarette hangs out.

Sun, 02 Nov 2025 21:54:03

really i want the internet

i believe search always should be immersive, because whatever is pre planned and non consuming (what you are looking for is total engulfment by the spectre of the real), a joyous intensity, a flow of virtue

This is a website run by a narcissist who can't produce anything without the hope that it is seen and loved but can't act due to the fear of it being seen and hated. They immediately feel the need to ask Jack GPT to define whatever this feeling is in the hope that understanding it will mean control over it and control over it will mean that they can stop it.

There is a pause. She ashes her cigarette. It falls on me. It seems like the birds have stopped too.

Garden Post-Dusk, Birds Above, In Another Life

its performative