"I'm only attracted to you", he replies. "Like, you only."

hiding from the rain

Overall meaning: The dream seems to explore vulnerability, unspoken emotion, and the tension between connection and isolation. It suggests you may be processing intense feelings of longing or missed opportunities, and your subconscious is guiding you to acknowledge, release, or transform them.

way too random but already engaging. i want to explore it

...

part of an old note. It will get lighter.

something religious, a kind of complex,

it will get lighter

, something washing, cleansing, revealing, etc.

She says something that isn't really right but isn't really wrong. I'm not taking in their words any more, just their voices, trying to get a feel for whatever is going on between them. I'm imagining what it's like for them in this delicate situation, what I would say if it were me. She has that perfect upper-class accent, and she's using whatever upper-class tact that comes with it to navigate this. Style. They can't be together, but their voices are betraying them.

i struggle with building a personal technical architecture for storing media, both curation and creation. instead i bookmark everything

"No, it'll get cold!"
"Put a tut ahh put a-"

like first name

magnetises a pin

its good short few pages

the textwall is as much for me as it is for you

i guess imagine a multimedia obsidian or notion that behaves according to some insane arcane rules that you can't ever really determine


Wed, 11 Nov 2025 21:12:41

Garden Post-Dusk, Birds Above, In Another Life

Can I see


Above and in front two birds are darting in and out of a tree. Sometimes they collide to fight or maybe mate, but I can't really make it out in the low light. It's just after

dusk

, I have nothing to do, I'm watching them, trying to figure it out.

much more tactility

I Write Goodbye Letter

think this is much more rhizomatic or immanent or mazelike than mainstream education now

ion

i sat down to eat my peasant dinner but i thought it was a song you sent so i didn’t watch it then

Lift Analysis


"Anyway, you're you. I mean, look at you!" she says. "You could get with anyone, anyone in the street. Really."

sorry i am texting like a slav

I wonder if she knew I was down there listening? I wonder if she would've said something more true, more personal, more raw, more heartfelt, more harsh, more seductive, more freeing, more exposing, more risky, more romantic, more rude, more honest, more anything, if there hadn't been an audience.