a version of this existed for a few months last year but it was static. it was HTML with writing and pictures and videos and sounds. i had this feeling that the code should be as important as the content, that structurally each piece in relation to each other piece shouldn't change, that the mazelike quality should emerge from me intricately arranging paths through it. like classic hypertext

There is a pause. She ashes her cigarette. It falls on me. It seems like the birds have stopped too.

Above and in front two birds are darting in and out of a tree. Sometimes they collide to fight or maybe mate, but I can't really make it out in the low light. It's just after

dusk

I'm trying to picture the scene inside, like I was trying to picture the scene in the tree.

I am below everything.

something for the future. something to look at when this is more. I've been thinking about... whatever

okay this is interesting because pedagogies we have rn are not proper models

abrar?

Tue, 02 Dec 2025 11:29:50

this is possible in mazelike research sprints on the internet

Thu, 06 Nov 2025 23:18:46

that looks like my instagram account

you cannot feed someone truth

its performative

you cannot feed someone language, they have to speak

there's probably something in that, but I don't feel like thinking about it too much yet.

magnetisation/form

Worse Lift

to work in time to get to the timeless, perfection thru chaos

like people can read 100 books and still not have the fire within them

I wonder if she knew I was down there listening? I wonder if she would've said something more true, more personal, more raw, more heartfelt, more harsh, more seductive, more freeing, more exposing, more risky, more romantic, more rude, more honest, more anything, if there hadn't been an audience.