"I'm only attracted to you", he replies. "Like, you only."

Thank you for telling me that I'm failing to see how I'm reproducing the dynamics I'm trying to critique by only describing my Korean colleague / fresh meat and the black girl in relation to others and myself.

nope. i only remember the leaves bristling behind the window during chemistry class

i got bored though because i knew all of the different arrangements of it. i probably needed to stick at it longer to get it dense enough to feel navigable in a way that was engaging to me

i believe search always should be immersive, because whatever is pre planned and non consuming (what you are looking for is total engulfment by the spectre of the real), a joyous intensity, a flow of virtue

ahnaf is it worth reading all those books

way too random but already engaging. i want to explore it

but it is in my head and am i compelled to realise it, so it is my silmarillion, my tempelos

wait what is that

...

the only things i have read are just excerpts and 1 dialogue by plato fully and mcluhan's medium is the massage but it cannot be considered a book

this is possible in mazelike research sprints on the internet

Thu, 04 Dec 2025 11:31:03

autonomy of learning

to work in time to get to the timeless, perfection thru chaos

division of reality is straying away from it

we need to be deconstructing our identities

December 2025


wow, you are the first stranger to write a textwall to me

mazelike/rhizomatic/immanent/emergent are not antithetical to a transcendent real but its very manifestation

"No, it'll get cold!"
"Put a tut ahh put a-"

This is a website run by a narcissist who can't produce anything without the hope that it is seen and loved but can't act due to the fear of it being seen and hated. They immediately feel the need to ask Jack GPT to define whatever this feeling is in the hope that understanding it will mean control over it and control over it will mean that they can stop it.

Like the tide, it comes in and it washes over the beach. It's beautiful. But like the tide it goes out, sometimes it goes out further than it ever has, it recedes back across the beach and further out beyond the horizon. The bare seabed opens up in front of you and all you can do is look at it.