i know a little bit of lacan which probably influences me in a way i cant articulate

or never left

yeah people dont get it they assume its ahnaf

was it worth it

what do you mean

have you read

Lift Analysis

wait what is that

I'm sat out the front of a cafe in Hatton Garden. I've just eaten a brie and bacon panini, and I'm rolling a cigarette. Feeling very London. An old man comes up to me and asks for a roll-up. I oblige.


whats your name?

isaac newton

...

He was a proper old-fashioned London geezer (cringe word, hate it, can't think of a better one, worst of all it's the correct word), kind of East Endy, kind of Real London, the kind you don't really meet but if you do it always feels like an uncanny immersive theatre experience. They're anachronistic. They only belong in the London collectively imagined by people who don't spend any time in it.

i have read not even 1 book

so an active mazelike process

The Hatton geezer (fuck off) reminds me of this old failed actor who I'd met at a party a few years ago, another man out of time and out of place. This actor had scored a minor role in Lock, Stock and Two Smoking Barrels and never really let go of it, had gone on to build his whole identity around it. I can't really blame him.

think this is much more rhizomatic or immanent or mazelike than mainstream education now

its good short few pages

we need to be deconstructing our identities

much more tactility

send link

like people can read 100 books and still not have the fire within them