i was tempted to lie about my name

much more tactility

you have a beautiful account btw

Tue, 02 Dec 2025 11:29:50

okay this is interesting because pedagogies we have rn are not proper models

but i respect your search

the point of this was to try and avoid this narcissistic death spiral I'm in by acting anonymously and impulsively. how can that feeling that even Jack can't describe paralyse me if my name isn't next to any of this? the excitement of believing I just need a new process has overcome me and I have cummed out an empty webpage.

this is possible in mazelike research sprints on the internet

something religious, a kind of complex,

it will get lighter

, something washing, cleansing, revealing, etc.

propensity within someone

i believe search always should be immersive, because whatever is pre planned and non consuming (what you are looking for is total engulfment by the spectre of the real), a joyous intensity, a flow of virtue

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no longer writing in the third person

i am quite confused, not quite getting the idea of it

its performative

Sun, 02 Nov 2025 22:11:24


After thinking and forgetting and thinking and forgetting

somewhere between instagram and chatgpt

the textwall is as much for me as it is for you

you cannot feed someone language, they have to speak

really i want the internet

you cannot feed someone truth

Sun, 02 Nov 2025 21:54:03

Today I felt like starting

it is hopeful

Above and behind a window opens and a cigarette hangs out.

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Above and in front two birds are darting in and out of a tree. Sometimes they collide to fight or maybe mate, but I can't really make it out in the low light. It's just after

dusk

, I have nothing to do, I'm watching them, trying to figure it out.

Mon, 03 Nov 2025 08:38:49

It Will Get Lighter


The bird dives back into the tree. It shakes, some leaves fall.