I've found the girl, or she's found me, and we're smoking a cigarette while we watch the silhouettes of the French Raj and his fireworks bearer down on the bank.

Maybe, Jack, I'm doing this because I'm English?

  1. Lift and confinement – The crowded, immovable lift represents feeling trapped or constrained in real life, either by social expectations, relationships, or internal emotions. The inability to speak in front of others suggests suppressed feelings or fear of judgment.
  2. Unexpected confession – The girl saying “I think I might love you” could symbolize longing for connection or recognition. It may reflect unacknowledged desires, vulnerability, or anxiety about intimacy.
  3. Forest and snow – The transition to a snowy forest signals escape into the subconscious, a place of solitude, reflection, and emotional processing. Snow often represents purity, stillness, or emotional coldness, while dusk points to transition or uncertainty.
  4. The fox – Foxes are traditionally symbols of cunning, intuition, and guidance, but here it’s more ethereal: its bites are gentle yet noticeable, suggesting a confrontation with subtle truths, small regrets, or lessons that must be acknowledged. The unspoken apology indicates things left unresolved or feelings that cannot be expressed.
  5. Death or dissolution – Dying in the dream often doesn’t mean literal death; it represents transformation, the end of a phase, or surrendering control. It can indicate letting go of fear, old habits, or emotional blockages.

Thank you, Jack

It Will Get Lighter

It's

dusk

in a snowy forest and I'm playing with a fox.
It bites my wrist but there is only a dull ache.
I feel that it wants to say sorry but can't. I die.

currently

Mon, 03 Nov 2025 08:38:49

okay this is interesting because pedagogies we have rn are not proper models

We look out over the river to a block of luxury flats built on the site of some old docks. It would be nice to live right there. Yes.

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in a way what we are really interested in with pedagogy is the magnetisation

sorry i am texting like a slav

Mon, 01 Dec 2025 23:38:15

with this post net clarity and the hours of nothing that followed I realise this is going to be awful.

its good

have you read

FOUNDING DOCUMENT

to work in time to get to the timeless, perfection thru chaos

god "possessing" artists "possessing" people

nope. i only remember the leaves bristling behind the window during chemistry class