was it worth it

i struggle with building a personal technical architecture for storing media, both curation and creation. instead i bookmark everything

think this is much more rhizomatic or immanent or mazelike than mainstream education now

so the method has to be autonomous

or never left

barren land

lol yea

to work in time to get to the timeless, perfection thru chaos

no longer writing in the third person

Hours staring at the ceiling, the wall, curling up into a ball. It seems annoyed with the light, it kind of recoils. It will get lighter. I wonder where it goes in the day.

It Will Get Lighter

Mon, 03 Nov 2025 08:27:13

a heavy, heavy rain. a clear day.

I created this site

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Sun, 23 Nov 2025 10:37:17

it is hopeful

Overall meaning: The dream seems to explore vulnerability, unspoken emotion, and the tension between connection and isolation. It suggests you may be processing intense feelings of longing or missed opportunities, and your subconscious is guiding you to acknowledge, release, or transform them.

confused - is it the tide or its absense? I still like where I was going with it. anyway, real reader know this site is the note.

Lift Analysis

your feed looks like my tumblr



and so on. not wanting the rhyming / clanging

the only things i have read are just excerpts and 1 dialogue by plato fully and mcluhan's medium is the massage but it cannot be considered a book

I wonder if she knew I was down there listening? I wonder if she would've said something more true, more personal, more raw, more heartfelt, more harsh, more seductive, more freeing, more exposing, more risky, more romantic, more rude, more honest, more anything, if there hadn't been an audience.