autonomy of learning

think this is much more rhizomatic or immanent or mazelike than mainstream education now

god being the centre magnet

ion

propensity within someone

magnetisation basically means the induction of divine form unto you

lol yea

i did until you asked which kind of gave it away

like magnets

ahnaf is it worth reading all those books

magnetisation/form


It Will Get Lighter


2 (actually index). two is company

confused - is it the tide or its absense? I still like where I was going with it. anyway, real reader know this site is the note.

Slug

I Write Goodbye Letter


hello reader,

Hours staring at the ceiling, the wall, curling up into a ball. It seems annoyed with the light, it kind of recoils. It will get lighter. I wonder where it goes in the day.


December 2025

Dreams like these are highly symbolic and emotionally intense. Here’s a breakdown of common interpretations:

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your feed looks like my tumblr

i have read not even 1 book

i want to do that too

we want to live the knowledge too live the content

okay this is interesting because pedagogies we have rn are not proper models

i know a little bit of lacan which probably influences me in a way i cant articulate

bro i read nothing in my life

  1. Lift and confinement – The crowded, immovable lift represents feeling trapped or constrained in real life, either by social expectations, relationships, or internal emotions. The inability to speak in front of others suggests suppressed feelings or fear of judgment.
  2. Unexpected confession – The girl saying “I think I might love you” could symbolize longing for connection or recognition. It may reflect unacknowledged desires, vulnerability, or anxiety about intimacy.
  3. Forest and snow – The transition to a snowy forest signals escape into the subconscious, a place of solitude, reflection, and emotional processing. Snow often represents purity, stillness, or emotional coldness, while dusk points to transition or uncertainty.
  4. The fox – Foxes are traditionally symbols of cunning, intuition, and guidance, but here it’s more ethereal: its bites are gentle yet noticeable, suggesting a confrontation with subtle truths, small regrets, or lessons that must be acknowledged. The unspoken apology indicates things left unresolved or feelings that cannot be expressed.
  5. Death or dissolution – Dying in the dream often doesn’t mean literal death; it represents transformation, the end of a phase, or surrendering control. It can indicate letting go of fear, old habits, or emotional blockages.

so the method has to be autonomous

you cannot feed someone language, they have to speak

We gather around the start of a causeway down to the Thames. It's a pretty cold night and there's a breeze coming off the river.

like first name