i struggle with building a personal technical architecture for storing media,
both curation and creation. instead i bookmark everything
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Above and in front two birds are darting in and out of a tree. Sometimes they collide to fight or maybe mate,
but I can't
really make it out in the low light. It's just after
dusk
,
I have nothing to do, I'm watching them, trying to figure it out.
your feed looks like my tumblr
"No, it'll get cold!"
"Put a tut ahh put a-"
you cannot feed someone truth
Imprint, memory, impact, representation, impression
okay this is interesting because pedagogies we have rn are not proper models
One of the birds shoots out of the tree.
It's
dusk
in a snowy forest and I'm playing with a fox.
It bites my wrist but there is only a dull ache.
I feel that it wants to say sorry but
can't. I die.
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so the method has to be autonomous
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Lift and confinement – The crowded, immovable lift represents feeling trapped or constrained in real life, either by social expectations,
relationships, or internal emotions. The inability to
speak in front of others suggests suppressed feelings or
fear of judgment. Unexpected confession –
The girl
saying “I think I might love you” could symbolize longing for connection or
recognition. It may reflect unacknowledged desires, vulnerability, or anxiety about intimacy. Forest and snow – The transition to a snowy forest signals escape into the subconscious, a place
of solitude, reflection, and emotional
processing. Snow often represents purity, stillness, or emotional coldness, while dusk
points to
transition or
uncertainty. The fox – Foxes
are traditionally symbols of cunning, intuition, and guidance, but here it’s more ethereal: its bites are gentle yet noticeable, suggesting a confrontation with subtle truths, small regrets, or lessons that must be acknowledged. The unspoken apology indicates things left unresolved or feelings that cannot be expressed. Death or dissolution – Dying
in the dream often doesn’t mean literal death; it represents
transformation, the end of a phase, or surrendering control. It can
indicate letting go of fear, old habits, or emotional blockages.
They're fucking around with the box. I ask her what people do with fireworks
for so long before they're ready to light. She doesn't know.