way too random but already engaging. i want to explore it

we can only engage in such a way

division of reality is straying away from it

theres a kind of a cowardice to generative art that i want to avoid though. i want the kind of relationship to this thing that a game designer has to a game engine

so the method has to be autonomous

there is a distinction between western-modern pedagogical systems that's like text-based as in a legal method but there is an idea of "pathshala" or "guru shissho"/ "porompora" i mean how masters relayed knowledge to the student by (oral) transmission often by memorising books. so what was taught was always interactive. knowledge was interactive, you spoke with people rather than read texts.

Thu, 06 Nov 2025 23:18:46

somewhere between instagram and chatgpt

brb i will read and reply sincerely

so at the end

that is unstable and lets me operate in that discovery mode that i can create within and also produce works from.

She closes the window. I wasn't paying attention anyway, I'm getting cold, and the birds are nowhere to be seen. I go inside.

i see a website

Better Lift

a lot of what i've been doing has been some imaginary screenshot or recording of his website, something that could be found within it

as in

but it is in my head and am i compelled to realise it, so it is my silmarillion, my tempelos

it is hopeful

It Will Get Lighter

Hours staring at the ceiling, the wall, curling up into a ball. It seems annoyed with the light, it kind of recoils. It will get lighter. I wonder where it goes in the day.

It Will Get Lighter

nope. i only remember the leaves bristling behind the window during chemistry class