After I get away from the old racist failed actor, I go to see my Korean colleague. He's just arrived in London and I want to see how he's handling the party. We'd been invited as fresh meat for some of the older, gayer attendees. We aren't aware of that.

this is possible in mazelike research sprints on the internet

much more tactility

think this is much more rhizomatic or immanent or mazelike than mainstream education now

in a post. I want to be remembered

somewhere between instagram and chatgpt


Better Lift

to work in time to get to the timeless, perfection thru chaos

It Will Get Lighter

brb i will read and reply sincerely

Today I felt like starting

something religious, a kind of complex,

it will get lighter

, something washing, cleansing, revealing, etc.

Garden Post-Dusk, Birds Above, In Another Life

Thu, 06 Nov 2025 23:18:46

I'm in a crowded lift and a girl I've never met tells me she thinks she might love me.
The lift won't stop at any floor, and I can't talk in front of all these people.

Lift Analysis

Better Lift

something for the future. something to look at when this is more. I've been thinking about... whatever

It Will Get Lighter

Above and behind a window opens and a cigarette hangs out.

There is a pause. She ashes her cigarette. It falls on me. It seems like the birds have stopped too.


no longer writing in the third person

i got bored though because i knew all of the different arrangements of it. i probably needed to stick at it longer to get it dense enough to feel navigable in a way that was engaging to me

i know a little bit of lacan which probably influences me in a way i cant articulate

Imprint, memory, impact, representation, impression

I know that if I try to make this entry any more than it is I will ruin it.

you have a beautiful account btw