i know a little bit of lacan which probably influences me in a way i cant articulate

lol

division of reality is straying away from it

all that is to say

Hours staring at the ceiling, the wall, curling up into a ball. It seems annoyed with the light, it kind of recoils. It will get lighter. I wonder where it goes in the day.

i have read not even 1 book

really i want the internet

Rain, starting

It's

dusk

in a snowy forest and I'm playing with a fox.
It bites my wrist but there is only a dull ache.
I feel that it wants to say sorry but can't. I die.


like people can read 100 books and still not have the fire within them


we can only engage in such a way

it exists in my head in some way that i'm trying to get out i lied on my story a little bit because i'm mostly feeling it and thinking about it. feeling something deeply doesn't necessitate any kind of deep relevance or whatever but the thinking is useful

It Will Get Lighter

December 2025

as in


its good

nope. i only remember the leaves bristling behind the window during chemistry class

Imprint, memory, impact, representation, impression