the point of this was to try and avoid this narcissistic death spiral I'm in by acting anonymously and impulsively. how can that feeling that even Jack can't describe paralyse me if my name isn't next to any of this? the excitement of believing I just need a new process has overcome me and I have cummed out an empty webpage.

Above and behind a window opens and a cigarette hangs out.

Rain, starting

fw

to work in time to get to the timeless, perfection thru chaos

division of reality is straying away from it

i want to do that too

i love it here

ahnaf abrar

Overall meaning: The dream seems to explore vulnerability, unspoken emotion, and the tension between connection and isolation. It suggests you may be processing intense feelings of longing or missed opportunities, and your subconscious is guiding you to acknowledge, release, or transform them.

Mon, 01 Dec 2025 23:38:15

I've found the girl, or she's found me, and we're smoking a cigarette while we watch the silhouettes of the French Raj and his fireworks bearer down on the bank.

so an active mazelike process

and the fake qualifier

something for the future. something to look at when this is more. I've been thinking about... whatever

not their contents

there's probably something in that, but I don't feel like thinking about it too much yet.

plato

It Will Get Lighter

is this you as well

you cannot feed someone language, they have to speak

...

"I'm only attracted to you", he replies. "Like, you only."

Windrush Art Kid Oligarch

a version of this existed for a few months last year but it was static. it was HTML with writing and pictures and videos and sounds. i had this feeling that the code should be as important as the content, that structurally each piece in relation to each other piece shouldn't change, that the mazelike quality should emerge from me intricately arranging paths through it. like classic hypertext

It Will Get Lighter