it holds me to something (you, now). I love editing!
nope. i only remember the leaves bristling behind the window during chemistry
class
They're fucking around with the box. I ask her what people do with fireworks
for so long before they're ready to light. She doesn't know.
Overall meaning: The dream seems to explore vulnerability, unspoken emotion,
and the tension between connection and isolation. It suggests you may be
processing intense feelings of longing or missed opportunities, and your
subconscious is guiding you to acknowledge, release, or transform them.
think this is much more rhizomatic or immanent or mazelike than mainstream
education now
Lift and confinement – The crowded, immovable lift represents feeling trapped or
constrained in real life,
either by
social expectations, relationships, or internal emotions. The inability to speak in front of others suggests suppressed feelings or fear of judgment. Unexpected confession – The girl saying “I think I might love you” could symbolize longing for connection or recognition. It may reflect unacknowledged desires, vulnerability, or anxiety about intimacy. Forest and snow – The transition to a snowy forest signals escape into the subconscious, a place of solitude, reflection, and emotional processing. Snow often represents purity, stillness, or emotional coldness, while dusk points to transition or uncertainty. The fox – Foxes are traditionally symbols of cunning, intuition, and guidance, but here it’s more ethereal: its bites are gentle yet noticeable, suggesting a confrontation with subtle truths, small regrets, or lessons that must be acknowledged. The unspoken apology indicates things left unresolved or feelings that cannot be expressed. Death or dissolution – Dying in the dream often doesn’t mean literal death; it represents transformation, the end of a phase, or surrendering control. It can indicate letting go of fear, old habits, or emotional blockages.
I've found the girl, or she's found me, and we're smoking a cigarette while we
watch the silhouettes of the French Raj and his fireworks bearer down on the
bank.
so magnetisation means the divine spirit acting thru u endowing you with its
qualities
Sun, 02 Nov 2025 21:54:03
but really the thing should be autonomous
There is a pause. She ashes her cigarette. It falls on me. It seems like the birds have stopped too.
confused - is it the tide or its absense? I still like where I was going with
it. anyway, real reader know this site is the note.
I know that if I try to make this entry any more than it is I will ruin it.
really i want the internet
we want to live the knowledge too live the content
It Will Get Lighter
