i believe search always should be immersive, because whatever is pre planned and non consuming (what you are looking for is total engulfment by the spectre of the real), a joyous intensity, a flow of virtue

really i want the internet

This is a website run by a narcissist who can't produce anything without the hope that it is seen and loved but can't act due to the fear of it being seen and hated. They immediately feel the need to ask Jack GPT to define whatever this feeling is in the hope that understanding it will mean control over it and control over it will mean that they can stop it.

i have read not even 1 book

1

hiding from the rain

It Will Get Lighter

magnetisation/form

you cannot feed someone truth

After thinking and forgetting and thinking and forgetting

this is possible in mazelike research sprints on the internet

kind of mythopoesis

a heavy, heavy rain. a clear day.

I created this site

.

in a way what we are really interested in with pedagogy is the magnetisation

that is unstable and lets me operate in that discovery mode that i can create within and also produce works from.

something religious, a kind of complex,

it will get lighter

, something washing, cleansing, revealing, etc.

theres a kind of a cowardice to generative art that i want to avoid though. i want the kind of relationship to this thing that a game designer has to a game engine

the point of this was to try and avoid this narcissistic death spiral I'm in by acting anonymously and impulsively. how can that feeling that even Jack can't describe paralyse me if my name isn't next to any of this? the excitement of believing I just need a new process has overcome me and I have cummed out an empty webpage.

but really the thing should be autonomous

i see a website though something that reconfigures or is mazelike

Wed, 11 Nov 2025 21:12:41

wow, you are the first stranger to write a textwall to me

i am quite illiterate on producing technology

there's probably something in that, but I don't feel like thinking about it too much yet.

the textwall is as much for me as it is for you

as in

Tue, 02 Dec 2025 11:29:50

its performative

I am below everything.

FOUNDING DOCUMENT

no longer writing in the third person