its good

to work in time to get to the timeless, perfection thru chaos

as in

okay this is interesting because pedagogies we have rn are not proper models

mazelike/rhizomatic/immanent/emergent are not antithetical to a transcendent real but its very manifestation

my watchlater reached its limit years ago and now i have to create a playlist for each new topic im interested in but it is incredibly hard to create the taxonomy of knowledge because everything seems to be everything else because at the end it is what you get from it that matters not what is given


i struggle with building a personal technical architecture for storing media, both curation and creation. instead i bookmark everything

13, H, grate

not their contents

There is a pause. She ashes her cigarette. It falls on me. It seems like the birds have stopped too.

its performative

all that is to say

"No, it'll get cold!"
"Put a tut ahh put a-"

It Will Get Lighter

so the method has to be autonomous

Tue, 02 Dec 2025 11:29:50

I wonder if she knew I was down there listening? I wonder if she would've said something more true, more personal, more raw, more heartfelt, more harsh, more seductive, more freeing, more exposing, more risky, more romantic, more rude, more honest, more anything, if there hadn't been an audience.


you cannot feed someone language, they have to speak

like people can read 100 books and still not have the fire within them

Imprint, memory, impact, representation, impression

okay im going very rogue and very inarticulate

She says something that isn't really right but isn't really wrong. I'm not taking in their words any more, just their voices, trying to get a feel for whatever is going on between them. I'm imagining what it's like for them in this delicate situation, what I would say if it were me. She has that perfect upper-class accent, and she's using whatever upper-class tact that comes with it to navigate this. Style. They can't be together, but their voices are betraying them.

She closes the window. I wasn't paying attention anyway, I'm getting cold, and the birds are nowhere to be seen. I go inside.

think this is much more rhizomatic or immanent or mazelike than mainstream education now

so at the end

that looks like my instagram account

much more tactility

division of reality is straying away from it