i got bored though because i knew all of the different arrangements of it. i probably needed to stick at it longer to get it dense enough to feel navigable in a way that was engaging to me

Rain, starting

the point of this was to try and avoid this narcissistic death spiral I'm in by acting anonymously and impulsively. how can that feeling that even Jack can't describe paralyse me if my name isn't next to any of this? the excitement of believing I just need a new process has overcome me and I have cummed out an empty webpage.

It Will Get Lighter

It Will Get Lighter

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Sun, 23 Nov 2025 10:37:17

there's probably something in that, but I don't feel like thinking about it too much yet.

I'm in a crowded lift and a girl I've never met tells me she thinks she might love me.
The lift won't stop at any floor, and I can't talk in front of all these people.

Windrush Art Kid Oligarch

so the method has to be autonomous

division of reality is straying away from it

so at the end

like people can read 100 books and still not have the fire within them

okay im going very rogue and very inarticulate

Wed, 11 Nov 2025 21:12:41

idk

i hadn't considered this pedagogically or as a kind of personal knowledge management system (puke) at all but i suppose it is both of those things

or never left

lol yea

you cannot feed someone language, they have to speak

with this post net clarity and the hours of nothing that followed I realise this is going to be awful.

ahnaf is it worth reading all those books