There is a pause. She ashes her cigarette. It falls on me. It seems like the birds have stopped too.


mazelike/rhizomatic/immanent/emergent are not antithetical to a transcendent real but its very manifestation

yeah

fw

in a way what we are really interested in with pedagogy is the magnetisation

is this you as well

feel you

its performative

no i haven't really read anything

so the method has to be autonomous

lol yea

division of reality is straying away from it

barren land

so an active mazelike process

there is a distinction between western-modern pedagogical systems that's like text-based as in a legal method but there is an idea of "pathshala" or "guru shissho"/ "porompora" i mean how masters relayed knowledge to the student by (oral) transmission often by memorising books. so what was taught was always interactive. knowledge was interactive, you spoke with people rather than read texts.

ion

autonomy of learning

no like which do people call me

We look out over the river to a block of luxury flats built on the site of some old docks. It would be nice to live right there. Yes.


ahnaf abrar

was it worth it

was it worth it

ahnaf is it worth reading all those books

It Will Get Lighter

way too random but already engaging. i want to explore it

like people can read 100 books and still not have the fire within them

She says something that isn't really right but isn't really wrong. I'm not taking in their words any more, just their voices, trying to get a feel for whatever is going on between them. I'm imagining what it's like for them in this delicate situation, what I would say if it were me. She has that perfect upper-class accent, and she's using whatever upper-class tact that comes with it to navigate this. Style. They can't be together, but their voices are betraying them.

nope. i only remember the leaves bristling behind the window during chemistry class

Their voices are saying they haven't and shouldn't fuck but want to so bad, or have fucked and can't again but want to so bad, or something like that. Would this be easier if they were birds? Incel kind of question... I'm not following the conversation, but I'm still listening. He's talking in this slightly begging way. It's a way of talking that asks for pity, like he's already tried appealing to every other one of her sensibilities. Incel kind of observation... Maybe he just talks like that, in some upspeak derivative. Haha unless?

bro i read nothing in my life

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