I've found the girl, or she's found me, and we're smoking a cigarette while we watch the silhouettes of the French Raj and his fireworks bearer down on the bank.

  1. Lift and confinement – The crowded, immovable lift represents feeling trapped or constrained in real life, either by social expectations, relationships, or internal emotions. The inability to speak in front of others suggests suppressed feelings or fear of judgment.
  2. Unexpected confession – The girl saying “I think I might love you” could symbolize longing for connection or recognition. It may reflect unacknowledged desires, vulnerability, or anxiety about intimacy.
  3. Forest and snow – The transition to a snowy forest signals escape into the subconscious, a place of solitude, reflection, and emotional processing. Snow often represents purity, stillness, or emotional coldness, while dusk points to transition or uncertainty.
  4. The fox – Foxes are traditionally symbols of cunning, intuition, and guidance, but here it’s more ethereal: its bites are gentle yet noticeable, suggesting a confrontation with subtle truths, small regrets, or lessons that must be acknowledged. The unspoken apology indicates things left unresolved or feelings that cannot be expressed.
  5. Death or dissolution – Dying in the dream often doesn’t mean literal death; it represents transformation, the end of a phase, or surrendering control. It can indicate letting go of fear, old habits, or emotional blockages.

Thank you for telling me that I'm failing to see how I'm reproducing the dynamics I'm trying to critique by only describing my Korean colleague / fresh meat and the black girl in relation to others and myself.


not their contents

magnetisation basically means the induction of divine form unto you

that looks like my instagram account

autonomy of learning

division of reality is straying away from it

i understand

It Will Get Lighter

so the method has to be autonomous

like first name

send your tumblr

is everyoneback on tumblr now

i love it here

so magnetisation means the divine spirit acting thru u endowing you with its qualities

my watchlater reached its limit years ago and now i have to create a playlist for each new topic im interested in but it is incredibly hard to create the taxonomy of knowledge because everything seems to be everything else because at the end it is what you get from it that matters not what is given

confused - is it the tide or its absense? I still like where I was going with it. anyway, real reader know this site is the note.

We look out over the river to a block of luxury flats built on the site of some old docks. It would be nice to live right there. Yes.

what do you mean

and so on. not wanting the rhyming / clanging

ahnaf is it worth reading all those books

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i know a little bit of lacan which probably influences me in a way i cant articulate

sorry i am texting like a slav

all that is to say