it holds me to something (you, now). I love editing!
yes
but it is in my head and am i compelled to realise it, so it is my silmarillion, my tempelos
autonomy of learning
something for the future. something to look at when this is more. I've been thinking about... whatever
so the method has to be autonomous
Above and behind a window opens and a cigarette hangs out.
you cannot feed someone truth
the point of this was to try and avoid this narcissistic death spiral I'm in by acting anonymously and impulsively. how can that feeling that even Jack can't describe paralyse me if my name isn't next to any of this? the excitement of believing I just need a new process has overcome me and I have cummed out an empty webpage.
it exists in my head in some way that i'm trying to get out i lied on my story a little bit because i'm mostly feeling it and thinking about it. feeling something deeply doesn't necessitate any kind of deep relevance or whatever but the thinking is useful
to work in time to get to the timeless, perfection thru chaos
This is a website run by a narcissist who can't produce anything without the hope that it is seen and loved but can't act due to the fear of it being seen and hated. They immediately feel the need to ask Jack GPT to define whatever this feeling is in the hope that understanding it will mean control over it and control over it will mean that they can stop it.
i am quite confused, not quite getting the idea of it
"I'm only attracted to you", he replies. "Like, you only."
i know a little bit of lacan which probably influences me in a way i cant articulate
Lift Analysis
something religious, a kind of complex,
it will get lighter
, something washing, cleansing, revealing, etc.Thu, 06 Nov 2025 21:22:59
Sun, 23 Nov 2025 10:37:17
wow, you are the first stranger to write a textwall to me
this is possible in mazelike research sprints on the internet
mazelike/rhizomatic/immanent/emergent are not antithetical to a transcendent real but its very manifestation
propensity within someone
no longer writing in the third person
Thu, 06 Nov 2025 23:18:46