something for the future. something to look at when this is more. I've been thinking about... whatever

It's dusk in a snowy forest and I'm playing with a fox. It bites my wrist but there is only a dull ache. I feel that it wants to say sorry but can't. I die.

Thu, 06 Nov 2025 21:22:59

the point of this was to try and avoid this narcissistic death spiral I'm in by acting anonymously and impulsively. how can that feeling that even Jack can't describe paralyse me if my name isn't next to any of this? the excitement of believing I just need a new process has overcome me and I have cummed out an empty webpage.

13, H, grate

that is unstable and lets me operate in that discovery mode that i can create within and also produce works from.

yes

i am quite illiterate on producing technology

I wonder if she knew I was down there listening? I wonder if she would've said something more true, more personal, more raw, more heartfelt, more harsh, more seductive, more freeing, more exposing, more risky, more romantic, more rude, more honest, more anything, if there hadn't been an audience.

It Will Get Lighter

there's probably something in that, but I don't feel like thinking about it too much yet.

IWGD

but really the thing should be autonomous

Above and behind a window opens and a cigarette hangs out.

to work in time to get to the timeless, perfection thru chaos

Sun, 02 Nov 2025 21:54:03