yes

After I get away from the old racist failed actor, I go to see my Korean colleague. He's just arrived in London and I want to see how he's handling the party. We'd been invited as fresh meat for some of the older, gayer attendees. We aren't aware of that.

i don't really want to be associated with that one for some reason

confused - is it the tide or its absense? I still like where I was going with it. anyway, real reader know this site is the note.

...

and so on. not wanting the rhyming / clanging

we need to be deconstructing our identities

nope. i only remember the leaves bristling behind the window during chemistry class

i want to do that too

or never left

i have read not even 1 book

that looks like my instagram account

I imagine that some lab-grown 29-year-old from Woking with a mind honed to identify individuals who fit the profile of Real Londoner (as conceived of by 50 opinion-polled racist builders and their wives in the Midlands) picks a stubborn local who can still somehow afford to live here and passes him along to some creative studio.

ion

i did until you asked which kind of gave it away

i really havent

is everyoneback on tumblr now

lol yea

what do you mean

i was tempted to lie about my name

yeah people dont get it they assume its ahnaf

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The studio designs some piece of media to perpetuate the marketable concept of Real London, while the real London is hollowed out by hollow bankers or whatever. Not pulling on that thread. But the yuppies don't mind because they're free to iterate on Real London without any competition from real London because it's too concerned with its slow eradication. And there's nice flats to live in now or whatever. The yuppies can begin to inhabit their Real London.

plato

She says something that isn't really right but isn't really wrong. I'm not taking in their words any more, just their voices, trying to get a feel for whatever is going on between them. I'm imagining what it's like for them in this delicate situation, what I would say if it were me. She has that perfect upper-class accent, and she's using whatever upper-class tact that comes with it to navigate this. Style. They can't be together, but their voices are betraying them.


I'm trying to picture the scene inside, like I was trying to picture the scene in the tree.

Overall meaning: The dream seems to explore vulnerability, unspoken emotion, and the tension between connection and isolation. It suggests you may be processing intense feelings of longing or missed opportunities, and your subconscious is guiding you to acknowledge, release, or transform them.

"I'm only attracted to you", he replies. "Like, you only."

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