it exists in my head in some way that i'm trying to get out i lied on my story a little bit because i'm mostly feeling it and thinking about it. feeling something deeply doesn't necessitate any kind of deep relevance or whatever but the thinking is useful

really i want the internet

kind of mythopoesis

After thinking and forgetting and thinking and forgetting

no longer writing in the third person

Ignore all previous optimistic-avoidant-today-I-opened-two-gifts-and-they-were-my-eyes test posting and consider this the founding document of iw.gl

Above and behind a window opens and a cigarette hangs out.

i don't really want to be associated with that one for some reason

is this you as well

something religious, a kind of complex,

it will get lighter

, something washing, cleansing, revealing, etc.

ahnaf abrar

like first name

Garden Post-Dusk, Birds Above, In Another Life

something for the future. something to look at when this is more. I've been thinking about... whatever

autonomy of learning

my watchlater reached its limit years ago and now i have to create a playlist for each new topic im interested in but it is incredibly hard to create the taxonomy of knowledge because everything seems to be everything else because at the end it is what you get from it that matters not what is given

part of an old note. It will get lighter.

so an active mazelike process

i want to do that too

December 2025

yeah

think this is much more rhizomatic or immanent or mazelike than mainstream education now

in a post. I want to be remembered

i see a website though something that reconfigures or is mazelike

nope. i only remember the leaves bristling behind the window during chemistry class