I'm in a crowded lift and a girl I've never met tells me she thinks she might love me.
The lift won't stop at any floor, and I can't talk in front of all these people.

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Overall meaning: The dream seems to explore vulnerability, unspoken emotion, and the tension between connection and isolation. It suggests you may be processing intense feelings of longing or missed opportunities, and your subconscious is guiding you to acknowledge, release, or transform them.

there's probably something in that, but I don't feel like thinking about it too much yet.

13, H, grate

i struggle with building a personal technical architecture for storing media, both curation and creation. instead i bookmark everything

lol

think this is much more rhizomatic or immanent or mazelike than mainstream education now

brb i will read and reply sincerely

in a post. I want to be remembered

okay this is interesting because pedagogies we have rn are not proper models

somewhere between instagram and chatgpt

Lift Analysis

Hours staring at the ceiling, the wall, curling up into a ball. It seems annoyed with the light, it kind of recoils. It will get lighter. I wonder where it goes in the day.

It Will Get Lighter

as in

The slug lives in my bathroom. I only see it in the early hours of the morning, when I'm not quite right.

so an active mazelike process

"I'm only attracted to you", he replies. "Like, you only."

Imprint, memory, impact, representation, impression

its performative

One of the birds shoots out of the tree.

this is possible in mazelike research sprints on the internet

I'm trying to picture the scene inside, like I was trying to picture the scene in the tree.

magnetisation/form