okay im going very rogue and very inarticulate
but it is in my head and am i compelled to realise it, so it is my
silmarillion, my tempelos
Worse Lift
like people can read 100 books and still not have the fire within them
Lift Analysis
it holds me to something (you, now). I love editing!
part of an old note. It will get lighter.
Mon, 03 Nov 2025 08:38:49
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you know who you are. no more time, not like
1
. way too
specific.
I Write Goodbye Letter
I'm in a crowded lift and a girl I've never met tells me she thinks she might love me.
The lift won't stop at any floor, and I can't talk in front of all these people.
a lot of what i've been doing has been some imaginary screenshot or recording
of his website, something that could be found within it
FOUNDING DOCUMENT
Overall meaning: The dream seems to explore vulnerability, unspoken emotion,
and the tension between connection and isolation. It suggests you may be
processing intense feelings of longing or missed opportunities, and your
subconscious is guiding you to acknowledge, release, or transform them.
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Lift and confinement – The crowded, immovable lift represents feeling
trapped or constrained in real life, either by social expectations,
relationships, or internal emotions. The inability to speak in front of
others suggests suppressed feelings or fear of judgment.
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Unexpected confession – The girl saying “I think I might love you” could
symbolize longing for connection or recognition. It may reflect
unacknowledged desires, vulnerability, or anxiety about intimacy.
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Forest and snow – The transition to a snowy forest signals escape into the
subconscious, a place of solitude, reflection, and emotional processing.
Snow often represents purity, stillness, or emotional coldness, while dusk
points to transition or uncertainty.
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The fox – Foxes are traditionally symbols of cunning, intuition, and
guidance, but here it’s more ethereal: its bites are gentle yet noticeable,
suggesting a confrontation with subtle truths, small regrets, or lessons
that must be acknowledged. The unspoken apology indicates things left
unresolved or feelings that cannot be expressed.
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Death or dissolution – Dying in the dream often doesn’t mean literal death;
it represents transformation, the end of a phase, or surrendering control.
It can indicate letting go of fear, old habits, or emotional blockages.
It's
dusk
in a snowy forest and I'm playing with a fox.
It bites
my wrist
but there is
only a dull ache.
I feel that it wants to say sorry but can't. I die.
confused - is it the tide or its absense? I still like where I was going with
it. anyway, real reader know this site is the note.
my watchlater reached its limit years ago and now i have to create a playlist
for each new topic im interested in but it is incredibly hard to create the
taxonomy of knowledge because everything seems to be everything else because
at the end it is what you get from it that matters not what is given
2 (actually index). two is company
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