i was tempted to lie about my name

but it is in my head and am i compelled to realise it, so it is my silmarillion, my tempelos

Thu, 06 Nov 2025 23:18:46

there's probably something in that, but I don't feel like thinking about it too much yet.

Lift Analysis

something for the future. something to look at when this is more. I've been thinking about... whatever

Rain, starting

Thank you, Jack

Garden Post-Dusk, Birds Above, In Another Life

13, H, grate

the point of this was to try and avoid this narcissistic death spiral I'm in by acting anonymously and impulsively. how can that feeling that even Jack can't describe paralyse me if my name isn't next to any of this? the excitement of believing I just need a new process has overcome me and I have cummed out an empty webpage.

Sun, 02 Nov 2025 22:11:24

in a post. I want to be remembered


Imprint, memory, impact, representation, impression

like magnets

with this post net clarity and the hours of nothing that followed I realise this is going to be awful.

like first name

it exists in my head in some way that i'm trying to get out i lied on my story a little bit because i'm mostly feeling it and thinking about it. feeling something deeply doesn't necessitate any kind of deep relevance or whatever but the thinking is useful

ahnaf is it worth reading all those books