i really havent

I'm in a crowded lift and a girl I've never met tells me she thinks she might love me.
The lift won't stop at any floor, and I can't talk in front of all these people.

Sun, 02 Nov 2025 21:54:03

It's

dusk

in a snowy forest and I'm playing with a fox.
It bites my wrist but there is only a dull ache.
I feel that it wants to say sorry but can't. I die.

it is hopeful

no longer writing in the third person

it exists in my head in some way that i'm trying to get out i lied on my story a little bit because i'm mostly feeling it and thinking about it. feeling something deeply doesn't necessitate any kind of deep relevance or whatever but the thinking is useful

Sun, 02 Nov 2025 23:49:08

that is unstable and lets me operate in that discovery mode that i can create within and also produce works from.

all that is to say

we want to live the knowledge too live the content

mazelike/rhizomatic/immanent/emergent are not antithetical to a transcendent real but its very manifestation

IWGD

as in

so at the end

currently

i haven't read 100 book s so i'm probably not getting the depth of all of what you're saying

autonomy of learning