the point of this was to try and avoid this narcissistic death spiral I'm in by acting anonymously and impulsively. how can that feeling that even Jack can't describe paralyse me if my name isn't next to any of this? the excitement of believing I just need a new process has overcome me and I have cummed out an empty webpage.

in a post. I want to be remembered

a heavy, heavy rain. a clear day.

I created this site

.

i struggle with building a personal technical architecture for storing media, both curation and creation. instead i bookmark everything

Garden Post-Dusk, Birds Above, In Another Life


and the fake qualifier


god "possessing" artists "possessing" people

its performative

something religious, a kind of complex,

it will get lighter

, something washing, cleansing, revealing, etc.

what do you mean

propensity within someone

have you read

this is possible in mazelike research sprints on the internet

in a way what we are really interested in with pedagogy is the magnetisation

sorry i am texting like a slav

Worse Lift

i don't really want to be associated with that one for some reason

One of the birds shoots out of the tree.

ahnaf is it worth reading all those books

not their contents

okay this is interesting because pedagogies we have rn are not proper models

She says something that isn't really right but isn't really wrong. I'm not taking in their words any more, just their voices, trying to get a feel for whatever is going on between them. I'm imagining what it's like for them in this delicate situation, what I would say if it were me. She has that perfect upper-class accent, and she's using whatever upper-class tact that comes with it to navigate this. Style. They can't be together, but their voices are betraying them.

i dont understand magnetisation

Rain, starting

lol yea

and so on. not wanting the rhyming / clanging

is this you as well

...

as in

the site i am dreaming

its good

Imprint, memory, impact, representation, impression