the point of this was to try and avoid this narcissistic death spiral I'm in by acting anonymously and impulsively. how can that feeling that even Jack can't describe paralyse me if my name isn't next to any of this? the excitement of believing I just need a new process has overcome me and I have cummed out an empty webpage.

Sun, 02 Nov 2025 22:11:24

with this post net clarity and the hours of nothing that followed I realise this is going to be awful.



that looks like my instagram account

no like which do people call me

i don't really want to be associated with that one for some reason

I'm in a crowded lift and a girl I've never met tells me she thinks she might love me.
The lift won't stop at any floor, and I can't talk in front of all these people.

i did until you asked which kind of gave it away

Thu, 04 Dec 2025 11:31:03

i want to do that too

I know that if I try to make this entry any more than it is I will ruin it.

and the fake qualifier

i was tempted to lie about my name

like first name

ahnaf is it worth reading all those books

Above and behind a window opens and a cigarette hangs out.

Tue, 02 Dec 2025 11:29:50

ahnaf abrar

it is hopeful

ion

its good

nope. i only remember the leaves bristling behind the window during chemistry class

and the fake qualifier