the site i am dreaming

it exists in my head in some way that i'm trying to get out i lied on my story a little bit because i'm mostly feeling it and thinking about it. feeling something deeply doesn't necessitate any kind of deep relevance or whatever but the thinking is useful

It's

dusk

in a snowy forest and I'm playing with a fox.
It bites my wrist but there is only a dull ache.
I feel that it wants to say sorry but can't. I die.

currently

a lot of what i've been doing has been some imaginary screenshot or recording of his website, something that could be found within it

Imprint, memory, impact, representation, impression

After thinking and forgetting and thinking and forgetting

the textwall is as much for me as it is for you

a version of this existed for a few months last year but it was static. it was HTML with writing and pictures and videos and sounds. i had this feeling that the code should be as important as the content, that structurally each piece in relation to each other piece shouldn't change, that the mazelike quality should emerge from me intricately arranging paths through it. like classic hypertext 

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ahnaf abrar

in a post. I want to be remembered

plato

so the method has to be autonomous

is this you as well

magnetisation/form

not their contents

yeah

yeah people dont get it they assume its ahnaf

i hadn't considered this pedagogically or as a kind of personal knowledge management system (puke) at all but i suppose it is both of those things

Wed, 11 Nov 2025 21:12:41

like first name

was it worth it

bro i read nothing in my life

to work in time to get to the timeless, perfection thru chaos

we want to live the knowledge too live the content

you cannot feed someone language, they have to speak

and the fake qualifier