Sun, 02 Nov 2025 21:54:03

and the fake qualifier

Thu, 04 Dec 2025 11:31:03

Tue, 02 Dec 2025 11:29:50

brb i will read and reply sincerely

She says something that isn't really right but isn't really wrong. I'm not taking in their words any more, just their voices, trying to get a feel for whatever is going on between them. I'm imagining what it's like for them in this delicate situation, what I would say if it were me. She has that perfect upper-class accent, and she's using whatever upper-class tact that comes with it to navigate this. Style. They can't be together, but their voices are betraying them.

in a post. I want to be remembered

feel you

i did until you asked which kind of gave it away

really i want the internet

i am quite illiterate on producing technology

we need to be deconstructing our identities

magnetises a pin

isaac

what do you think my name is

that looks like my instagram account

i see a website though something that reconfigures or is mazelike

is this you as well

i want to do that too

there is a distinction between western-modern pedagogical systems that's like text-based as in a legal method but there is an idea of "pathshala" or "guru shissho"/ "porompora" i mean how masters relayed knowledge to the student by (oral) transmission often by memorising books. so what was taught was always interactive. knowledge was interactive, you spoke with people rather than read texts.

the point of this was to try and avoid this narcissistic death spiral I'm in by acting anonymously and impulsively. how can that feeling that even Jack can't describe paralyse me if my name isn't next to any of this? the excitement of believing I just need a new process has overcome me and I have cummed out an empty webpage.

propensity within someone

think this is much more rhizomatic or immanent or mazelike than mainstream education now

its performative

as in

i believe search always should be immersive, because whatever is pre planned and non consuming (what you are looking for is total engulfment by the spectre of the real), a joyous intensity, a flow of virtue

i love it here

not their contents

this is possible in mazelike research sprints on the internet

autonomy of learning