I wonder if the birds knew I was watching?

Thu, 06 Nov 2025 23:18:46

in a post. I want to be remembered

there's probably something in that, but I don't feel like thinking about it too much yet.

It Will Get Lighter

I am below everything.

Thank you, Jack

"No, it'll get cold!"
"Put a tut ahh put a-"

Rain, starting

Better Lift

no longer writing in the third person

Above and behind a window opens and a cigarette hangs out.

Imprint, memory, impact, representation, impression

Thu, 06 Nov 2025 23:18:46

that is unstable and lets me operate in that discovery mode that i can create within and also produce works from.

i see a website

somewhere between instagram and chatgpt

Thu, 06 Nov 2025 21:22:59

I wonder if she knew I was down there listening? I wonder if she would've said something more true, more personal, more raw, more heartfelt, more harsh, more seductive, more freeing, more exposing, more risky, more romantic, more rude, more honest, more anything, if there hadn't been an audience.

She says something that isn't really right but isn't really wrong. I'm not taking in their words any more, just their voices, trying to get a feel for whatever is going on between them. I'm imagining what it's like for them in this delicate situation, what I would say if it were me. She has that perfect upper-class accent, and she's using whatever upper-class tact that comes with it to navigate this. Style. They can't be together, but their voices are betraying them.

It's

dusk

Lift Analysis

i got bored though because i knew all of the different arrangements of it. i probably needed to stick at it longer to get it dense enough to feel navigable in a way that was engaging to me

it exists in my head in some way that i'm trying to get out i lied on my story a little bit because i'm mostly feeling it and thinking about it. feeling something deeply doesn't necessitate any kind of deep relevance or whatever but the thinking is useful