Lift Analysis
The old failed actor genuinely believed this girl was of a lesser race. He believed she shouldn't be talking with me, shouldn't be here at this party, shouldn't be here in this country. He wanted a white England. I didn't really challenge him on it. Sometimes I justify it with thoughts like I was drunk, or baffled, or it isn't an argument I'll win, or he can't hear me anyway, or whatever. I didn't argue with him. I just cut off his rant and left with a pathetic "In a bit."
hello reader,
but it is in my head and am i compelled to realise it, so it is my silmarillion, my tempelos
Thank you, Jack, for telling me I'm just as bad as the characters (actually they're people, if that means anything to you) that I'm writing about.
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barren land
I catch him on his way to the bar, telling him about this old racist failed actor that I'm avoiding. That I'm failing to confront. I get the sense he's avoiding people too. We get our drinks and find a corner. We chat for a bit. He's managing just fine.
The slug lives in my bathroom. I only see it in the early hours of the morning, when I'm not quite right.
Maybe, Jack, I'm doing this because I'm English?
god "possessing" artists "possessing" people
Like the tide, it comes in and it washes over the beach. It's beautiful. But like the tide it goes out, sometimes it goes out further than it ever has, it recedes back across the beach and further out beyond the horizon. The bare seabed opens up in front of you and all you can do is look at it.
wow, you are the first stranger to write a textwall to me
lol
Can I see
god being the centre magnet
but i respect your search
We look out over the river to a block of luxury flats built on the site of some old docks. It would be nice to live right there. Yes. The conversation drifts to the pleasantness of warm lighting and whether anyone needs a smart home. I interrupt her to make a joke about the French Raj as he runs up the causeway. We stand there laughing. The fireworks go off behind him.
plato
Thu, 06 Nov 2025 23:18:46
its good
i dont understand magnetisation
really i want the internet
a lot of what i've been doing has been some imaginary screenshot or recording of his website, something that could be found within it
My inability to confront the old racist failed actor is distracting me. I decide not to tell her about it.
no i haven't really read anything