i got bored though because i knew all of the different arrangements of it. i probably needed to stick at it longer to get it dense enough to feel navigable in a way that was engaging to me

with this post net clarity and the hours of nothing that followed I realise this is going to be awful.


okay im going very rogue and very inarticulate

Today I felt like starting

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"I'm only attracted to you", he replies. "Like, you only."

Above and behind a window opens and a cigarette hangs out.

It Will Get Lighter

no longer writing in the third person

It Will Get Lighter

She closes the window. I wasn't paying attention anyway, I'm getting cold, and the birds are nowhere to be seen. I go inside.

There is a pause. She ashes her cigarette. It falls on me. It seems like the birds have stopped too.

i did until you asked which kind of gave it away

I know that if I try to make this entry any more than it is I will ruin it.

mazelike/rhizomatic/immanent/emergent are not antithetical to a transcendent real but its very manifestation

...

After thinking and forgetting and thinking and forgetting

ahnaf abrar

Picture

i sat down to eat my peasant dinner but i thought it was a song you sent so i didn’t watch it then

i am quite confused, not quite getting the idea of it

i don't really want to be associated with that one for some reason

ahnaf is it worth reading all those books