The old failed actor genuinely believed this girl was of a lesser race. He believed she shouldn't be talking with me, shouldn't be here at this party, shouldn't be here in this country. He wanted a white England. I didn't really challenge him on it. Sometimes I justify it with thoughts like I was drunk, or baffled, or it isn't an argument I'll win, or he can't hear me anyway, or whatever. I didn't argue with him. I just cut off his rant and left with a pathetic "In a bit."

abrar?

Overall meaning: The dream seems to explore vulnerability, unspoken emotion, and the tension between connection and isolation. It suggests you may be processing intense feelings of longing or missed opportunities, and your subconscious is guiding you to acknowledge, release, or transform them.

yeah

i guess imagine a multimedia obsidian or notion that behaves according to some insane arcane rules that you can't ever really determine


It Will Get Lighter

your feed looks like my tumblr


and so on. not wanting the rhyming / clanging

He was cast as the guy who gets picked up and thrown out of the poker game to set the scene before the main characters arrive. Out of Real London and into real London, a discarded prop, at this party, chatting to me.


no i haven't really read anything

nope. i only remember the leaves bristling behind the window during chemistry class

i have read not even 1 book

...

⚠️ Live Document Forever ⚠️

i sat down to eat my peasant dinner but i thought it was a song you sent so i didn’t watch it then

its good short few pages

confused - is it the tide or its absense? I still like where I was going with it. anyway, real reader know this site is the note.

2 (actually index). two is company

i love it here

this is possible in mazelike research sprints on the internet

lol


I Write Goodbye Letter

thank you

amazing hopefully this was all legible and frankly i might be going very off board but you seemed interesting

i believe search always should be immersive, because whatever is pre planned and non consuming (what you are looking for is total engulfment by the spectre of the real), a joyous intensity, a flow of virtue

was it worth it

sorry i am texting like a slav

something religious, a kind of complex,

it will get lighter

, something washing, cleansing, revealing, etc.