I imagine that some lab-grown 29-year-old from Woking with a mind honed to
identify individuals who fit the profile of Real Londoner (as conceived of by
50 opinion-polled racist builders and their wives in the Midlands) picks a
stubborn local who can still somehow afford to live here and passes him along
to some creative studio.
The studio designs some piece of media to perpetuate the marketable concept of
Real London, while the real London is hollowed out by hollow bankers or
whatever. Not pulling on that thread. But the yuppies don't mind because
they're free to iterate on Real London without any competition from real
London because it's too concerned with its slow eradication. And there's nice
flats to live in now or whatever. The yuppies can begin to inhabit their Real
London.
He was cast as the guy who gets picked up and thrown out of the poker game to set the scene before the main characters arrive. Out
of Real London and into real London, a
discarded prop, at this party, chatting to me.
confused - is it the tide or its absense? I still like where I was going with
it. anyway, real reader know this site is the note.
He was a proper old-fashioned London geezer (cringe word, hate it, can't think
of a better one, worst of all it's the correct word), kind of East Endy, kind
of Real London, the kind you don't really meet but if you do it always feels
like an uncanny immersive theatre experience. They're anachronistic. They only
belong in the London collectively imagined by people who don't spend any time
in it.
ahnaf is it worth reading all those books
It Will Get Lighter
no like which do people call me
i was tempted to lie about my name
i did until you asked which kind of gave it away
a heavy, heavy rain. a clear day.
I created this site
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Imprint, memory, impact, representation, impression
Mon, 03 Nov 2025 08:27:13
Sun, 23 Nov 2025 10:37:17
nope. i only remember the leaves bristling behind the window during chemistry
class
something for the future. something to look at when this is more. I've been thinking about...
whatever
Thu, 04 Dec 2025 11:31:03
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Lift and confinement – The crowded, immovable lift represents feeling
trapped or constrained in real life, either by social expectations,
relationships, or internal emotions. The inability to speak in front of
others suggests suppressed feelings or fear of judgment.
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Unexpected confession – The girl saying “I think I might love you” could
symbolize longing for connection or recognition. It may reflect
unacknowledged desires, vulnerability, or anxiety about intimacy.
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Forest and snow – The transition to a snowy forest signals escape into the
subconscious, a place of solitude, reflection, and emotional processing.
Snow often represents purity, stillness, or emotional coldness, while dusk
points to transition or uncertainty.
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The fox – Foxes are traditionally symbols of cunning, intuition, and
guidance, but here it’s more ethereal: its bites are gentle yet noticeable,
suggesting a confrontation with subtle truths, small regrets, or lessons
that must be acknowledged. The unspoken apology indicates things left
unresolved or feelings that cannot be expressed.
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Death or dissolution – Dying in the dream often doesn’t mean literal death;
it represents transformation, the end of a phase, or surrendering control.
It can indicate letting go of fear, old habits, or emotional blockages.
